About Gender difference

[Gender]; a word so vastly stigmatized in a non-straight world.

[M]; denotes the dominant male counterpart (straight) or fully legalized male (previously transgender female)

[F]; denotes the female counterpart (straight) or fully legalized female (previously transgender male)

[MTF]; denotes the transgender male (semi functional). Commonly termed as an "Ah Kua" or "人妖"

[FTM]; denotes the transgender female (semi functional). Commonly termed as "Butch" or "男人婆"

[G]; denotes Gay, dominantly the male homosexual species

[L]; denotes Lesbian, dominantly the female homosexual species. Can also be termed as "Butch"

[B]; denotes Bisexual, can be termed to both male and female species

Emotional about funeral

Every time there is a funeral for someone I know, I would get really really emo. The feeling of losing a friend, a relative or even an acquaintance would set off the sensitive trauma in me. It is then we see the fragile part of life and the essential of "now".

「人生」短而曲折。

「眨眼」就会灯灭。

「盲目」虚无缥缈工作着。

「遗忘」眨眼就了了的情感。

「遗憾」没能圆满的人生。

你的人生可成盲目的眨眼，经过遗忘而留下遗憾？

"Life" is short and difficult.

"Blink" and all will be gone.

"Blindness" is never appreciating the little things you have.

"Forgetting" is always the close ones.

"Regret" a closure of life.

Have you gone through life blindly blinking away, forgetting and finally regret it.

~Wickedly WICKED~

Wicked! That's one word to describe this epic broadway musical...

A plot parallel to the story we (at least for me) know so well. You will see "The Wizard of Oz" in a different light and more importantly the Wicked Witch of the East in an "amphorous" color.

One quote i rememeber was "The Brocoli is Steamed" and you can only relish on the humor if you are there.

The story takes place in the Land of Oz, centering on Elphaba, the misunderstood, smart, kind and fiery girl with the emerald-green skin who grows up to become the notorious Wicked Witch of the East and Galinda (emphasizing on Ga), the beautiful, blonde, popular girl who grows up to become Glinda the Good Witch of the North.This two girl with a twist of fate becomes roommate unexpected and slowly starts to develop an unlikely friendship, all the whilst struggling through opposing personalities and viewpoints, rivalry over the same love-interest, reactions to the Wizard's corrupt government, and, ultimately, Elphaba's public fall from grace. The plot begins before and continues after Dorothy's (the girl who killed the witch) arrival from Kansa and includes references to locations, events, characters and situations from both the 1939 film and Baum's novel (1939).

Overall ratings: 5/5*

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow...

Just watched the Taiwanese teenage film "那年我们一起追过的女孩"

Conclusion: Amateurly romantic but largely down-to-earth.

You cannot compare this to a commercially-charged films from the states but it does give you the long forgotten perspective of teenage life which makes you start to reel-back the days you first chased after (or being chased) another gal (or guy (>_<")). The sweet innocent puppy romancing that rocket-start your love life imbuled with hot-blooded impulses to impress him together with a "who cares" idealism in life.

Draggy at the initial build-up, the transition from teenage to adult-hood and the burden that comes with it is all exploited immesely in the plot which will then really pull the heart-string of most of us who have gone through this phase.

The best comes at the end of the film where a twist and humor comes in place (i don't want to say whats that in case i spoil anyone's viewing pleasure). Overall rating: 4/5*

Go catch it!

About Reality

I woke up,
I wash up,
I ate breakfast,
I leave for work,
I work,
I ate lunch,
I work,
I leave for home,
I ate dinner,
I wash up,
I sleep


And the vicious cycle starts over again...


How many of us are becoming slave to this luxury chasing society?

We often left no time to care for those that we love...

My bad bad day...

Once and then there will be the so-call Bad days of our life... Today, i guess would be one of them.

Gotten a bad sprain, snubbed by friends, quarrelled with dad & gotten Sand Flies bites on the leg...

Sighz...

Daniel Powter - Had a Bad Day

About Broken Phase

Many a times in life we have to climb over hurdles and cross over uneven roads... And if we are not careful, we get to fall (graciously or not) flat on our face. I have been "Aunt Agony" to a few friends of mine but it can never work on myself... I guess by now you already knew, i am a "Drama Queen" of sort. Don't worry, i am not the broken wrist counterpart but rather... the Sensitive New Age Guy. Let's talk about the phases of a broken relationship, one that wasn't initiated by you...

Phase 1 -Denial
"No! I don't believe he will do this to me..."
"He still loves me... I know that"
"He must have a reason, could his work be pushing him too hard?"

Phase 2 - Self Blaming
"It must be something i do..."
"Am i not good enough? It must be"
"Something must be wrong with me! Yes! I knew it... It has to me the clothes i wear!"

Phase 3 - Anger
"Who does he think he is! What rights does he have to do this to me!"
"F**K Him! to hell with him n his kind!"
"I hate him!!! Next time i see him, i am doing some damage!"

Phase 4 - Destruction
"Let me drink myself away..."
"Why do anyone care? Let me f**k the world apart!"
"Beer? Wine? Who cares! Just give me whatever"

Phase 5 - Forgiveness
"I forgive you..."
"He must have his reasons enough to be this drastic... it's alright."
"I don't hate him anymore than i do to a stranger."

Phase 6 - Release
"I hope he will be happy wherever he is now. Seriously!"
"Life is such, i still have a family and i still have friends i love."
"We can still be friends..."

I have gone through all this phases myself and experienced what no mortal enemy of mine shall need to go through. Right now, I am at peace with my being... Hatred has long gone and only smiles are left. I had the memories, the beauty of happiness being once together etched within me. Right now, which phase are you going through? No matter which one... just be Happy.
-Leo

About Carrying the Family Line...

Now, what about baby can a grown gay man like me has to talk about. Well, even thou i can't give birth (thank god for that!) i still can have a family right? My little niece has arrived... and those cute eyes are so adorable *swoon*.

My two siblings are already married and have successfully given birth... so very soon i would be bearing the blunt of the questions, "So... When's your turn?"

There's this saying in Chinese,
“不孝有三，无后为大”

So, The question now would be,
1) Do i care about the feelings of my parents?
2) Can i withstand the looks of the society?
3) Would i be able to overcome the agony of traditional thinking?
4) Should i carry on being who i am?

I guess this would be what most of the Chinese gay adults has to go through。

I often quote my mum's phrase in life,
“养儿育女，长优一百”

But i know she's only saying it because she cares... Sigh, all this thinking is making me go round and round...